Making an Effort
Whenever a year is nearing it's end, I tend to reflect on how to prepare myself for the next chapter of my life story. There is so much going on already, sometimes I get fully immersed in everything I follow along with through the news or internet. My own priorities become an afterthought. Which is a habit I'm trying to break. Over the course of this month, I've realized I need to achieve more of the goals I've set for myself. I really hope to improve at being productive in some areas. If I want to continue to grow as a person and artist, I have to put myself out there more. I have to try taking more calculated risks. That is the scariest part of being an artist. Sometimes I wish it could be a simple task for me. Being an introvert has meant I've had a preference for being most comfortable in my own space. That would be my bedroom. However, staying in the same place and not building connections will keep me halted. I would love to be more engaged in community, not only artistic ones either. Conquering this fear of facing strangers could be like climbing up a mountain. The satisfying moment will be when I can finally be able to exhale. This could end up being the best life decision for me. It could present opportunities where I could develop positive relationships with peers. It's special to have people in your circle that you can count on. Having someone there to lift you up, and encourage you to pursue your dreams is valuable. I can't imagine myself being alone in my future. Nobody should have to endure life by themselves. I'm not saying I want to be popular or famous, I just want to have more people I can lean on. I don't want to be a lonely artist.