The Current Musings
This entry will be more of a message to myself to look back on. I like having my blog for just putting my words down somewhere. If anyone sees and can relate, that enhances my whole experience on Bear. Nobody wants to feel entirely alone in these times. Speaking of which, I'd love to discover other artists or creatives here. I know social medias are where most of you are, but.. I haven't been too fond of how the owners of those sites have been treating artists. So, I'm not anywhere else except for here.
Sometimes perfectionism is what holds us back. It's more of a common artist problem then I thought. It's definitely held me back in regards of where I want to go with creating art. I remember when I was practicing consistently throughout the year, I was proud of my progress and the effort I was putting towards my practice routine. Until one day, I thought "what am I even doing this for?" You'd think it would be simple for me to figure this out on my own. The truth is, it isn't so easy right now. I've been debating if I should draw as a hobby forever, or make art into my career.
There's a lot to consider when making that big decision. It has advantages and disadvantages, of course. The career/business path isn't for everyone (and that's fine!). Going back to college to get a Bachelor's is a whole other step I'd have to take. Currently I'm still undecided on the degree. I would have to be ready to commit to a more serious workflow. I'll be honest, I have gotten burnt out this year. Thinking about the state of the art world and worrying about what could change has left me tired. I have never thought of needing a plan B until now. I'm quickly finding out it is always good to have one.
Considering all of my options is what I'm focused on, for now. One step at a time. I refuse to rush into anything, I want to plan carefully. At the same time, I don't want to keep myself from moving forward because I'm overthinking everything for too long. That perfectionist mindset again. There's only so much time I can spend wondering, before making any final decisions.
Taking calculated risks is what I've been told to do, so I'm holding on to that advice for the time being. While also continuing to find joy in the little moments. It's easier for me to get inspired when I'm happy. Playing with my supplies has been soothing for when I need to let go and take a break from pondering. Maybe I should do more of that soon.